A glimpse at what a parent experiences

Physically:

  • Exhaustion
  • numbness
  • difficulty breathing/swallowing
  • Body aches/pains
  • shivering
  • insomnia
  • Rapid breathing/heart rate
  • diminished heart rate/breathing
  • “Drugged” feeling, unable to pick up feet without immense effort
  • Hearing “echo” when others speak to you
  • Difficulty seeing/focusing without effort

Feelings:

  • Guilty
  • Depressed
  • Out of control
  • Negligent
  • Unfocused
  • Helpless
  • Angry
  • Scared
  • Jealous/Envious
  • Not cognizant of time passing
  • Loss of purpose/role in life
  • Lack of self-worth or confidence
  • Confusion/Wisdom
  • Out-of-self experiences (Watching your life go by while looking on from a distance)

Behavior:

  • Forgetfulness
  • Short attention span
  • Lack of interest in their own
  • hyper active
  • weary
  • well being
  • Detached from life
  • Unfocused
  • Subdued demeanor
  • Uncontrollable sobbing
  • Rude
  • Forgiving/nurturing
  • Angry/Aggressive
  • Panic attacks
  • Preoccupied with death
  • Complete silence
  • Rapid speech
  • Fantasizing (what if)

Thoughts:

  • “I’m going crazy!”
  • “I don’t deserve this!”
  • “Why do they have all of their kids?”
  • “Why did I do this/that to my child?”
  • “ I feel so alone!”
  • “Why didn’t I hold him/her more?”
  • “Nobody understands!”
  • “Did he know how much I love him?”
  • “How can I be sad for the rest of my life?”
  • “How can I survive?”
  • “Why am I being punished?”
  • “What if something else happens?”
  • “Why am I here and he/she is not?”
  • “Will I ever laugh again?”
  • “How can I be a parent to my other children?”
  • “Please God, take me now!”
  • “Why me?”
  • “I hate you, God!”
  • “Why are they here and he is not?”
  • “I cannot do this!”
  • “Forgive me God.”
  • “Please let me see him again someday in Heaven!”
  • “Thank you God for this child!”
  • “He is worth every tear!”
  • “Can he/she see me now?”
  • “Is he/she safe?”
  • “Was he/she scared?”
  • “He/she is worth waiting for!”



Grieving Hearts